Guess it's about time that I will share this with you.
I have been a Christian for more than 10years now.
In those years, I have experienced God's love and abundant blessings on me in terms of health, career and relationships.
There where still ups and downs but He pulled me through His amazing grace.
I was blessed.
I had so much fun in my life in a good way.
And even until now.
BUT...
During those times, I was still stuck in a same-sex relationship.
Yeah.
I was in love with my ex and Jesus at the same time.
During those years, like any other normal relationships, it ended after 7 years ( the number of rest. Godcidence? Coincidence?)
I was heartbroken and asked God for forgiveness for a wrong reason ( that I messed it all up) and even prayed for a new gf.
I prayed that He restores and fix my broken heart and He did.
After months of recuperating, soul-searching.
I moved on.
I met alot of new cool friends and ended up happy and contented again.
Opportunities came in and I was so overwhelmed by the way Jesus is taking good care of me like a Shepherd does in Psalm23.
One day, I woke up with full of joy and peace in my heart that I spoke to Him.
These were my words.
"Jesus, thank You for being so patient with me all these years. Even if I suck it big time, even if I know I have hurt you, still you continue to pour out your love on me. I just wanna let You know that now, I appreciate what you have been doing to me Lord. So let me repay you. ( i know you will say, I don't need to do anything. Faith is enough. But No Lord. I'm gonna do this for you because I love you. And this time, I wanna make it right with you )
So, after a week or so.
I found myself so in love with Jesus. Super in love.
So in love that I even committed and decided
to Him that I will stop my old ways.
Must be spirit working in me huh?
I believe so.
Yes!
Now, I'm gonna walk with God.
I have offered my body and spirit to Him
simply because, I am a new creation in Him.
My sins and old ways are washed away by His blood.
True enough,
He has took out all my longings for a same-sex relationship.
Now, everytime I see a beautiful woman ,
It doesn't trigger it already.
I will just say,"Hey Lord, You have such an amazing creation, i hope she gets saved. 😀"
There you go!
My journey as a Christian was God's proven character that He is a very patient God. And that He loves us so.
He never abandons someone who keeps on calling unto Him no matter what his current situation is. No matter what his/her current bondage or struggle is whether pornography, Homosexuality, sorcerers etc.
He is always there changing, transforming us from the inside out so in time, He can use us to help advance His kingdom.
Now, I realised that being a Christian is a commitment.
I cannot love God and still continue to do my old ways. My old self is gone. By Jesus' sacrifice at the cross , I am made new!
He has been faithful to me. And love me so.
So now, it's time to love Him back.
Although , I can't say that I will be perfect in loving Him, but He will be my guidance and strength in this journey.
"So now there is no more condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus,
And because you belong to Him,
The power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death."
Romans 8:1
Like if you love someone in this world,
your goal is to please and love that person back faithfully.
So it works almost the same thing with loving God. The difference is that, God is just the ever-patient partner. Always waiting and waiting for you to come back to Him.
Apologies if I am running out of time for now.
Just so you know , my testimony doesn't end here.
This is just the beginning and will keep you posted.
- feed your FAITH and your doubts will starve -
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